Julie Greene's Blog

I am going back to the ED hospital

2010-02-28T00:59:00Z

I have to go back

Loads of new dog sweater photos!

2010-02-25T02:24:00Z

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Knitters, support our troops! Operation Helmetliner

2010-02-25T01:44:00Z

What does “Support Our Troops” mean? It doesn’t mean having a certain political viewpoint or supporting a certain political candidate, or even having a certain opinion about war.

If you really want to support the troops, do something in your own way to directly help them.

Operation Helmetliner is one of these ways to directly help the troops. There is a need: Soldiers need to stay warm. It is a well-known fact that one loses a great deal of heat through one’s head. Wool is an excellent insulator. A helmet is not. To stay warm, a wool liner under a helmet seems like an excellent idea. So–you guessed it–a bunch of knitters have gotten together, written up a pattern, and have been knitting helmetliners for the soldiers.

Go to this URL: http://www.citizensam.org/ and click on operation helmetliner to find out more.

Unfortunately, due to regulations, you can’t put decorations on these, or use funky colors, stripes, etc, just regulation colors, black preferably. If you do something wrong–make it out of synthetic instead of wool, for instance–they won’t give it to the troops, they will donate it to charity. It’s very interesting how it all works.

Here is a photograph of a soldier wearing a helmetliner, under his helmet:

I am wondering if the helmetliner would also be useful under a bicycle helmet. However, it may not be, as a bicycle helmet must be firmly seated on one’s head, and not able to slide at all. I will have to ask a cyclist about this. Maybe my brother would know.

Go, knitters!

New Dog Sweater Pattern!

2010-02-21T01:51:00Z

I am constantly updating this pattern, so check back for revisions. Here is the link:

New knitted dog sweater pattern — free!

Here's the link to the photo of the sweater in progress, some of which I will have to rip out, unfortunately, as I have made an error:

Note on dog sweater pattern posted this morning, and photo!

Unfortunately, I was not able to post the photo directly. So the link will have to do.

Thoughts on Size Zero Needles and Other Musings on Knitting

2010-02-18T21:51:00Z

As you may recall, I always knit something when I travel by airplane. Well, I just traveled to Washington State to my school reunion. I had an adventure with knitting needles right before I left on my trip, which was as follows:

Do NOT, I repeat, do NOT, use size zero needles. You will age faster. Your hair will turn very gray. Your kids will start taking drugs. Your cats will run away from home. Your husbands will have ejaculations so premature that you will both be very, very sorry you ever even looked at size zero needles. Now, aren't you glad there are no negative one needles?

Size one needles are a joy by comparison. They actually have tips that don't happen to slice you up every time you look at them. I dig size one. Ditto size two. I actually bought some "spare" size zero needles in case my other size zero needles got lost on the plane. Then I had lotsa toothpicks for my trip. I changed my mind and switched needle size after I knitted about two inches, disgusted with the toothpicks. It actually made no difference cuz my stitching was tighter on the size ones, at least twice as fast, and neater, too. Plus, I could SEE.

Now, it took approximately 2-1/2 minutes to do a row, and there were four rows to a round. But if there was a difficult or stubborn stitch, the row took 2:45. This included moving the hair elastic from one needle to the other. I used those to keep the stitches on the needles and not somewhere else. Then I found some wonderful Clover brand caps for the needles. You will need eight for a double-pointed needle project. These are silicone and they do stay on.

Six rounds will make a half inch of sock. That means it takes ten+ minutes to do a round, 120+ minutes to do an inch, which is two to four hours, not including breaks. Including breaks, it takes at maybe eight hours to do an inch of sock. I have done four and a half inches or so now. On four plane rides, I did only about an inch to an inch and a half. The pattern recommends six inches of sock before turning the heel. Arrgghh!!! And this is only sock #1!

Do you know just how hard it is to knit socks with tiny needles on a plane? First of all, you have to keep your overhead light turned on. Undoubtedly, you'll be stuck sitting next to some arsehole who wants to sleep for the entire ride and is gravely offended by the light, and bothered by your periodic elbow jabbings (from dealing with runaway yarn) and swearing at stitches you nearly drop. Secondly, the light does no good, because your head forms a shadow over your knitting. This is remedied by leaning the seat back, but not without offending the person behind you and knocking over his coffee, spilling it all over his business suit. Then there is the well-meaning looker-on, who wants to tell you you are knitting all wrong, that you are too slow, too sloppy, that you don't know what you are doing, and really, you don't, do you? YOU'RE KNITTING SOCKS, AFTER ALL! THIS ISN'T SUPPOSED TO BE FUN!

So what did I do? When I got home, I decided to quit cursing, and put the project aside in favor of yet another hat, this one from Merino wool, bulky. I dig size 9 needles. Besides, when I bought the spare size zero and spare size 1 and 2 needles, I purchased more wool bulky yarn (couldn't resist) for a new dog sweater, this from the Windsor Button Shop in Boston.

If you haven't been to the Windsor Button Shop, I'd suggest going there. It is magnificent. What a gold mine. You are guaranteed to go home with something you love, but with a few dollars missing from your wallet. It's worth the sweater you'll make. Go there.

If you love knitting as much as I do, you will put up with the eyestrain, the dropped stitches, the frustration, the expense, the tangled yarn, the lost needles, the yarn that runs out at the last minute. You will put up with the fact that you've got three or four projects going at once. You know something? Knitting makes sense. And eventually, our projects--dog sweaters, hats, socks, mittens, scarves--do indeed get finished.

Recent Study on Eating Disorders Mortality

2010-02-18T20:42:00Z

Increased Mortality in Bulimia Nervosa and Other Eating Disorders. Objective: Anorexia nervosa has been consistently associated with increased mortality, but whether this is true for other types of eating disorders is unclear. The goal of this study was to determine whether anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, and eating disorder not otherwise specified are associated with increased all-cause mortality or suicide mortality. Method: Using computerized record linkage to the National Death Index, the authors conducted a longitudinal assessment of mortality over 8 to 25 years in 1,885 individuals with anorexia nervosa (N=177), bulimia nervosa (N=906), or eating disorder not otherwise specified (N=802) who presented for treatment at a specialized eating disorders clinic in an academic medical center. Results: Crude mortality rates were 4.0% for anorexia nervosa! , 3.9% for bulimia nervosa, and 5.2% for eating disorder not otherwise specified. All-cause standardized mortality ratios were significantly elevated for bulimia nervosa and eating disorder not otherwise specified; suicide standardized mortality ratios were elevated for bulimia nervosa and eating disorder not otherwise specified. Conclusions: Individuals with eating disorder not otherwise specified, which is sometimes viewed as a "less severe" eating disorder, had elevated mortality risks, similar to those found in anorexia nervosa. This study also demonstrated an increased risk of suicide across eating disorder diagnoses. Source: Am J Psychiatry. 2009 Dec;166(12):1342-6. PMID: 19833789.

Turning it around

2010-01-31T23:26:00Z

I am eating more now

Eating rocks. Try it.

Watertown Housing Authority maintenance screws up again

Update: the maintenance guy came and fixed the floor the next day. It was a relatively simple job to do. I was surprised. I thought they were going to have to rip up the whole bedroom floor!

Read my journal

2010-01-24T16:54:00Z

Hospitalization: My journal entries

A Decision

2010-01-24T10:40:00Z

I have decided that the best course of action would be to be honest with my treatment team, and tell them the truth about the hospitalization, rather than creating more lies. I will face the consequences, of course, but what am I to do? Without honesty, I might as well have no treatment at all. More later.

Something important I must remember

2010-01-23T14:25:00Z

A friend who is a recovered anorexic reminded me that I should commend myself for at least trying.

She is right. I showed up.

I did a brave thing. I cannot forget that. I took that step. And I can always go back.

I must always remember this. Especially now.

Commenting on my hospital stay - my voice - just click on "play"

2010-01-23T10:58:00Z

Thoughts before and after eating disorder treatment

2010-01-23T02:10:00Z

Am I really ready? Tomorrow is the day

I’m back!

Knitting at the last minute

2010-01-13T23:52:00Z

Yesterday:

A Hat to Match (includes photos)

Today:

Am I really ready? Tomorrow is the day

I am getting ready

2010-01-10T22:21:00Z

Getting ready

Podcast coming soon.

I had a birthday January 8th! 52 years old!

2010-01-10T16:02:00Z

Crappy birthday to me, crappy birthday to me

Dog sweater photos!

2010-01-05T06:04:00Z

I finally finished that dog sweater I’d been working on

click here to hear me wishing you a happy new year:

New entry - click on link - podcast coming soon!

2010-01-04T07:16:00Z

New Problems, new fears

You will be hearing my voice very soon.

I am feeling very low today - Merry Christmas

2009-12-26T02:13:00Z

I am feeling very low today

Merry Christmas. I am feeling very low today. I have not felt depressed like this for many, many months. I have been fortunate. Now, it all comes crashing down on me. Maybe, this is what my therapist warned me of.

My therapist said what was happening was that I felt good on the surface, but the foundation was built on a lie. I didn’t believe her. I still don’t believe her. I asked her if it was anything like a Sudoku puzzle that had a fundamental error deep down, that made all the numbers wrong. It may look right, but when you check the answer, it is all wrong. There are big goofs in it. It doesn’t make logical sense. She said that was it exactly. Well, I don’t believe my therapist one bit, but that was her theory, and she will of course argue that I am now crumbling because of my faulty foundation.

I believe I am depressed because of what SHE and Dr P are doing to me. When a therapist decides she’s not going to be your therapist anymore, when your treatment team decides they are going to give up on you, that’s pretty serious. It means you are a failure. It means that you will soon lose a major source of help and support. I don’t know what will happen to me once I lose them.

I gained four pounds, and this further depresses me. I know THEY will be delighted, but they will want more, and this gain will only serve to fuel them on. I did not gain to please them, nor did I gain for my own betterment. I gained because I lost control of my own impulses; I weakened momentarily. This was not a good thing. I seem to be recovering okay. I have not had a gain since this whole thing began. Why this happened I don’t know, but the timing was cruel indeed.

I was unable to shower this morning due to depression. I was unable to braid my hair. I was barely able to brush my teeth, but this I finally accomplished. I didn’t bother doing my laundry. Knitting provided reprieve until I discovered a leak in my window (Grrr) which caused a draft while I was knitting, and I could not continue to sit on the couch, where I sit normally to knit. I will have to call the Housing Authority regarding this leak on Monday. This further depresses me.

Merry Christmas.

The latest

2009-12-24T20:48:00Z

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An invitation to subscribe to my WordPress blog

2009-12-24T10:33:00Z

You can subscribe to this blog, and I will provide links to my WordPress blog. I've just decided to do this. On the left there is a place where you can subscribe. I will try to provide links on a regular basis.

BTW, I updated my home page. It's www.juliegreene.name. Go have a peek.